Breathe

Breathe.
I can’t.
Reach out.
I can’t.
Speak up.
I can’t.
It sounds good.
But I’m not sure if I ever could.
Or would.
Or even should.
I’m scared.
And I scare.
I’m hurt.
And I hurt.
I’m left.
And I leave.
Why are you even still hanging around me?
Don’t tell.
Don’t ask.
How funny it would be if everyone felt like that.
I’m lost.
Don’t find me.
It was never you but was always me.
It’s been beaten
So deep
Inside of me
That I believe.
I know what’s real and why you lied but I can’t ever make you satisfied its cruel and wrong but so was I why can’t we both just stop and go back in time?
I spend my days here alone
I hurt myself and don’t know why
It feels so good.
If you only knew.
Well I’m bettin that you would do it, too.
I can’t.
Speak up.
I can’t.
Reach out.
I can’t.
Breathe.
I need someone who will stay right by me.