Something's Wrong Here

Have you ever been in so much pain that you just kind of go numb? It hurts so bad, that you know if you didn’t spend every minute actively trying to swallow it, push it down, ignore it, and deny it, it would tear you apart. The kind of pain that you feel coming on, but you know if you let yourself feel it, it just might destroy you? The kind of pain that is impossible to hide from anyone, no matter how pretty you smile? The kind of pain you lie about…
You make me weak. And I’m okay with that. I like it. Kinda make me feel safe with you. Like I can trust you.
But girls like me aren’t suppose to be weak. Girls like me aren’t supposed to feel that way about someone.
Girls like me aren’t supposed to fall in love.